21/11/2010,10.20am..
I'm supposed to be working on my assignment which going to be due on tomorrow.
Waking up early not because of the assignment but something else. I'd really tried very hard on it but I could't do what I've promised to myself and others. It's just too suffer and hard for me to forget and ignore everything. I'd told myself I have to no matter how hard it is, I'd promised to myself I have to no matter how sad it is because the thing I treasure much is gone and will never come back to me, I'd told myself I have to accept everything without any complaints. But when I woke up from a dream just now, I know I can't! I'm so useless! I've just promised to myself few hours ago but I just can't do it. I hates myself for being so useless and weak. Everyone were asking me to be strong be tough and don't care about it but how could I forget the thing I'd treasure for so many years???? How could I??? I'm not willing to let go. I'm really not willing to...
My heart was broken completely and it's not gonna be healed. The feeling of heartache is much more suffer than headache and stomachache that I'm having now.
There's no right or wrong when comes to judging.
[ You will only realize how much you care and treasure it when you're going to lost it, forever! ]
Should I leave? T__T
Loves.
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